a place in his heart | mama & child photographer

as i drove into the dusk, a rare few moments alone in the car, i began to realize what was happening this evening.

the moment in which this precious baby entered into this world, took his first dramatic breath, and the umbilical cord was cut – was just the beginning. yes he was completely and utterly dependent upon me, but all the while, ever so slowly, he was growing up and growing away… he took his first steps, and used the potty. he went off to preschool, confident and elated while i quietly sobbed. all natural events, all beautiful things. still not the easiest for this sensitive and emotional mama bear.

tonight his daddy dropped him off at baseball practice; cleats, glove, and a smile on his face. though in a way he is still dependent upon me, it isn’t nearly as much as five years ago and tonight he slipped away just a teensy bit more. he entered yet another stage of life that will lead him to great places, that will bring learning and joy. i had to let go of his hand as he walked out the door, knowing that when i picked him up, he’d be a smidge older, wiser, and all the more unique.

as i tried to find the field, i could see in the distance two little orange arms flailing about – there was my boy. he smelled of dirt, and fun, and baseball. as we got in the car he said “mama, you look so pretty in your hat and best (vest). you’re pretty all the days.”

and it was then that i knew… no matter how much he might slip away into the next phase of life, he’ll always have a special place in his heart, for me.